Its like i can feel it;
your heartbeat under my hand.
It sends love trough my viens,
straight to my heart, breath into my lungs.
I can hear it in my ears
It sounds better than my favorite song.
My soundtrack.
Can you feel the beating?
Can you you hear the drumming?
“I’ll love you ’till it stops.”
I can’t breathe
The drumming of your heart
it’s over
It stopped.
Do you love me now?
As a Christian you will run into obstacles. Satan will tempt you. People will ask questions you can’t answer. You will face doubts. You will have questions. You may not understand. Basically what I’m saying is it’s hard work, and we, as Christians, have a very big reputation. To some people it’s not a good one. Christians are considered extremely stereotypical. People have asked me questions such as “Who created God?” “Just like you think Christianity is right, the Jews think they are right, the Muslims think they are right, how do you know your right?” and I don’t know the answer, i don’t know how to even begin to describe it, so i simply respond as, “As a Christan it’s part of my faith, to believe” But i also get comments like “i don’t go to church because everyone is so judgemental” “The church as a whole is hypocritical”And its the truth, Christians do tend to judge people. and im not saying every Christian does it but think about it? Some one tells you they don’t believe there is a God and they are forever a different person in your eyes. But there is a differene between judgement and concern! Personally,i dont think we should isolate ourselves from the outside world(or people who don’t beleive in God, support Gay marriage, aren’t as religious as you are, have different beleifs, etc.), you just have to learn to love people the way they are, witness, and have faith in God. We can’t do this ourselves, so who do we turn to? Our Savior, Jesus Christ. God will give you the strength to face your everyday life.
“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” Phillipians 4:13
these people are my heroes. they make my world go round. and they may or may not know this.
Carrie Krebs, Madelyn Wasden, Brynn Emmons-you are my best friends. basically i dont have to tell you how much i care, maybe because i dont (: hah, kidding, these girls are my BEST FRIENDS. yeah, i have three of em. im ready for next year so we can be together again. ive never been as close with anyone than i am with these tree, they are my back bone, and they tell me when im stupid, we act like we hate eachother, but we dont, we love each other 
i love you.
My family-keeps me tact, and they are always there. i love you.
Dane Adams; I’ve known D.O. since i was born, literally, and we have been best friends since. i guess we were forced into friendship, haha (: but he is more protective than a brother and i know he has always got my back, unless i do something stupid..haha i love you.
Ambaa Townsend and Reedy Covar; are basically the craziest people i know at STHS. Without them school would be unbearable. and they gained my trust faster than most people, they’re special. They make me laugh especially when im angry in Geom. (: i love you guys.
Nikki (NIKE) Jackson and Taylor Paul(TP); We have been great friends for quite some time now, and we’re finally getting close again. these two girls are the best influence and extremly trustworthy. iloveyou!
J. Snydaaa; thats your name. and your a loser. haha, most of the time we are very rude to each other, and if your ever around us while we’re talking most of our comments will involve insults. but he makes my day more than often, and is one of the greatest people i know, he just doesnt know that because were too busy being rude. probably cause i talk to him regularly. i’ve known him longer than the rest of “the crew” (thats what i call them). so yeah, feel the love.
James Millaa; is hilarious. end of discussion. there has never been a day that involves James that doesnt involve laughter. its great, plus…he’s got a knack for understanding people. love you(:
Jordan (JB) Ball & Luke Mclure & Jonathan Drew; Jordan and Luke have art with me. basically, they know my whle life. they just dont know it (: without them, im pretty sure half of my freashman year would be horrid. but we always have a good time. plus we make some pretty BEASTLY recycle bins. haha. Jonathan, on the other hand, has no classes with me, but, he is one of my close friends. ASDFGHJKL: love you guys
Corey Alexander Neal; aka The colorful guy or the guy with the bandana around his neck is the only guy with enough guts to do the hand clap with me at lunch, and lets me draw pictures of him getting eletricuted (: He makes my day, every day in Geometry. Talk to him, he’s more than likely to put a smile on your face. (:
Brett Lamb; keeps me in line. He also makes my day with ease. In the past several months my perception of him changed drastically. Basicaly, he’s a great kid.
Kelsey Dyer; now goes to NAHS, but she will always be one of my best friends.
Garry Timmerman; has earned is keep as Maddy’s man, haha (: he’s pretty much on of my really good friends.
Tommy and Kelly Wafford-Tommy is my youth pastor and Kelly is his wife, so basically, they changed my life
“The Crew”; Ryan Meier, Evan Ochiltree, Macie Whatley, Bear Shuford, Abigail Forty, Brooke Busby, Jonathan Snyder & and James Miller. But ive already mentioned two of these people. You’ll never find one of these kids without the other. its pretty insane, actually, but these are some the greatest people ive ever met. and hanging out with them is one of my favorite things to do. love you kids (:
I think im ADD, and i probably forgot soemone, so i’ll add more people as i think.
MISSION STATEMENT:
To Write Love on Her Arms is a non-profit movement dedicated to presenting hope and finding help for people struggling with depression, addiction, self-injury and suicide. TWLOHA exists to encourage, inform, inspire and also to invest directly into treatment and recovery.
VISION:
The vision is that we actually believe these things…You were created to love and be loved. You were meant to live life in relationship with other people, to know and be known. You need to know that your story is important and that you’re part of a bigger story. You need to know that your life matters.We live in a difficult world, a broken world. My friend Byron is very smart – he says that life is hard for most people most of the time. We believe that everyone can relate to pain, that all of us live with questions, and all of us get stuck in moments. You need to know that you’re not alone in the places you feel stuck. We all wake to the human condition. We wake to mystery and beauty but also to tragedy and loss. Millions of people live with problems of pain. Millions of homes are filled with questions – moments and seasons and cycles that come as thieves and aim to stay. We know that pain is very real. It is our privilege to suggest that hope is real, and that help is real.
You need to know that rescue is possible, that freedom is possible, that God is still in the business of redemption. We’re seeing it happen. We’re seeing lives change as people get the help they need. People sitting across from a counselor for the first time. People stepping into treatment. In desperate moments, people calling a suicide hotline. We know that the first step to recovery is the hardest to take. We want to say here that it’s worth it, that your life is worth fighting for, that it’s possible to change. Beyond treatment, we believe that community is essential, that people need other people, that we were never meant to do life alone.
The vision is that community and hope and help would replace secrets and silence.
The vision is people putting down guns and blades and bottles.
The vision is that we can reduce the suicide rate in America and around the world.
The vision is that we would learn what it means to love our friends, and that we would love ourselves enough to get the help we need.The vision is better endings. The vision is the restoration of broken families and broken relationships. The vision is people finding life, finding freedom, finding love. The vision is graduation, a Super Bowl, a wedding, a child, a sunrise. The vision is people becoming incredible parents, people breaking cycles, making change. The vision is the possibility that your best days are ahead. The vision is the possibility that we’re more loved than we’ll ever know. The vision is hope, and hope is real.You are not alone, and this is not the end of your story.
To Write Love On Her Arms
Pedro the Lion is loud in the speakers, and the city waits just outside our open windows. She sits and sings, legs crossed in the passenger seat, her pretty voice hiding in the volume. Music is a safe place and Pedro is her favorite. It hits me that she won’t see this skyline for several weeks, and we will be without her. I lean forward, knowing this will be written, and I ask what she’d say if her story had an audience. She smiles. “Tell them to look up. Tell them to remember the stars.”
I would rather write her a song, because songs don’t wait to resolve, and because songs mean so much to her. Stories wait for endings, but songs are brave things bold enough to sing when all they know is darkness. These words, like most words, will be written next to midnight, between hurricane and harbor, as both claim to save her.
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Rescue is Possible
So all you football fans, or any American, knows that the SUPERBOWL is coming up!
PITTSBURGH STEELERS vs. ARIZONA CARDINALS
Now i don’t kow about you but…my head is saying ” Go Steelers”, but then again,you kinda have to pull for the underdog. The Cardinals were horrible in many prior seasons to this one, now they are in the superbowl! Thats pretty impressive. Now the Steelers…they are a little more experienced when it comes to this whole Supoerbowl ordeal. So i guess i’ll decide who im pulling for when its game time. also Bruce Springsteen is the half time show! haha, im pretty pumped.
Today, after church, i went to Cracker Barrel with my family. Sitting about ten feet away at a table by himself was a very well dressed man. i was thinking “come one, dude, its cracker barrel, what up the outfit? that’s a nice tie, try not to get syrup on it”A young lady walked up with a baby in her arms, she said hello, and showed him her child (I’m assuming it was her child). This man, looking to old to be the father, flashed a huge smile. i looked down at my menu, waiting for my waitress, who by the way, had no personality and when i said thank you, she just looked at me cautiously like i was gonna ask her to do go get some butter or something. Anyway, back to the story. when i looked up from my menu the young lady and her child were gone. My food came, thank goodness. And you have no idea where I’m going with this story. I was cutting my chicken up, i laid my knife down, and it crashed to the floor. clank. cling. ting. i think “Well, that’s nice” (obviously very sarcastically.) i pick it up, lay it one the table, and begin to finish my meal without a knife. Then, the man stands up. “maybe to go to the bathroom? i wouldn’t know. ” About five minutes later a verywell dressed man, the same man from earlier, is on his way back to his table right next to ours. He stops and says “i believe you dropped your knife, here, i got you a new set of silverware”i was dumbfounded. And it may sound stupid, but how many complete strangers do you favors these days? NOT MANY! i smiled huge, surprised by his kindness, i say “thank you!” he replies with “my pleasure” then returns to his table to finish up a phone call. THAT ONE TINY ACTION MADE MY DAY! this is what i mean when i sayi care about the little things. here is this man, who has never seen me in his life, but yet he stops his work that he is doing, just to get me a clean knife! now try and tell me that’s not nice. i was amazed and yet thankful, that man made my day and made me realize that there are still genuinely nice people in this crazy world.
i know this story was drawn out, but i wanted to get my point cross.
Lift up. Love in. Live out.
-AnnaLogan
I have found my place.
if you don’t know me personally, and you just know me by what i post on my blog, then you have got me all wrong. I don’t want you to think i’m someone that i am not. So i figured i’d fill you in on the real me, my personality, my thoughts the last month or two, the mistakes, the good and the bad.
From what you read on my blog you probably get the idea that i am a girl who is really in touch with God, possibly soemone who is nice, and smart. well the truth is i’m not even close to were i want to be relationship-wise with Christ. Once again I have fallen of the wagon. and i am struggling to get back on. This time i have support and someone to lift me back up and inspire me to stay on. Luckily.
I have a horrible temper, my mouth gets me in trouble, i’m a tad bit too harsh, my sarcasm offends people, i have very little patience, etc. I’m not always nice. I unintentionally hurt peoples feelings. actually, i wish i was the person i portray through my blog. i wish i didn’t always “lock and laod when a smart comment comes my way, but yet i refuse to duck and cover” People have the wrong idea, i am very outspoken, i like you to know what im thinking, but lately ive been keeping things to myself. i don’t say what i do to hurt you, i dont mean to sound bitter. I have a couple knicks in my fender. I do some pretty stupid stuff. Recently, i decided i was gonna try to be nice to everyone and not take things out on people. Its a work in progress, feel free to inspire me. i know this blog is kind of a hodge podge, but stick with me.
last night i went to WINTERJAM it was amazing. Tony Nolan gave a great message, and the music was beast. i went to church wednesday and sunday, and i’ve been talking with my friends. im trying here to be better, i promise, even though it doesnt always seem like it. music and my friends is what gets me through everything. Speaking of friends, let me fill you in. i have a handful of people that are my backbone. they are my world and i’d do anything for them, there even a few people who im not close with who i’d back up anytime. see, im not all sarcasm. i hate seeing people upset, and when i turn eighteen i want to intern with “TO WRITE LOVE ON HER ARMS” in cocoa, fla.
the reason i decided to fill you in on all of this is because Sunday my pastor, Steve Davis, gave a message about how everyone wants to be known by something. i dont want to be known for my temper or sarcastic comments, i want to be known for the girl im not. i want to be known as the girl who helped me, the girl who is always positive. so i think im gonna try to change for the better. Just because its the right thing to do. and because its soemthing i want to do. dont get me wrong, i do seomtimes like the fact that i am outspoken, it gets me seomwhere when im trying to get a point across.
so im pretty much done expresses myself for the time being.
I’m letting go
Of the life I planned for me
And my dreams
Losing control
Of my destiny
Feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe
So I’m letting goThis is a giant leap of faith
Trusting and trying to embraceThe fear of the unknown
Beyond my comfort zone
-francesca battistelli, im letting go
I’m still looking for a dream
A war is already waged for my destiny
But You’ve already won the battle
And You’ve got great plans for me
Though I can’t always see, ’cause…
I got a couple dents in my fender
Got a couple rips in my jeans
Try to fit the pieces together
But perfection is my enemy
And on my own I’m so clumsy
But on Your shoulders I can see
I’m free to be me
When I was just a girl
I thought I had it figured out
See my life will turn out right
And I’ll make it here somehow
But things don’t always come that easy
And sometimes I would doubt, ’cause…
And you’re free to be you
Sometimes I believe
That I can do anything
Yet other times I think
I’ve got nothing good to bring
But You look at my heart and you tell me
That I’ve got all You seek
And it’s easy to believe, even though…
And you’re free to be you
-francesca battistelli, free to be me
is what i want, but;
its freeeezing! and i am counting down the days until Summer rolls around. I am going to St. Simons Island with my best friends, and i have never been more excited. This summer will be the best and im ready for whatever comes my way. wahhh.
asdfghjkl;
anna.
There are a few things i’d like to do/achieve before i kick the bucket. I guess that is a bad way to say it…but you get the point. i thought i’d make a list of them to help me remeber, and so that i can add more goals as i grow older. Some are very simple and easy to accomplish, but others are things that i consider once in a lifetime… so here goes…
no particular order;
I’m not finished…there are still more, ill finish up later..
